Tuesday, June 16, 2015

Post-Tori Feels Part 4

Okay, so I mentioned what happened before the show and during the show but now I thought I would mention how I feel collectively about the entire thing and how it felt compared to her last show.

I've only been to a handful of shows in my life. However, I've seen Tori twice now. Her first show was entirely acoustic, just her and her guitar. At her first show I was literally front row center stage and could've put my water bottle on stage had I not been afraid security would carry me away. The venue was a little smaller at her first show I think though the size was fairly similar due to the structure of the building if I had to guess. At the first show I went to it was more organized and Tori didn't have anyone to open for her.

I liked that this show was in a nicer setting and the crowd wasn't as rude. I also liked that Tori performed both with and without the band since it brought a lot of energy to the show and a different dynamic. I loved hearing Us perform before Tori and getting to hear so many songs. I loved the crowd participation moments and little moments in between songs.

I didn't like where I sat for this show. I wish the pictures I tried to take didn't all turn out blurry since I was too far away and I wish my phone didn't die before some of my videos were saved. I liked being able to see how the crowd reacted but I didn't feel as much like I was a part of the show and the energy didn't feel the same at all. At the last show I remembered every little detail and could replay it over in my head but this one didn't leave the same after effect. Oddly enough, it felt sort of surreal like it was there and then the moment passed so quickly like it had hardly even happened at all. I didn't like not being able to see very well and I felt like the area I was in could've been a little more excited to see Tori and be more involved.

I liked that I got to take cute photos with Tori and Us but I would've loved to just actually sit down and talk to them and get to know more about them as people and the things they like vs the things they don't like and I'd love to chat with people who appreciate music as much as I do. I don't mind the whole fangirl aspect to shows but it'd be really nice to just sit down and be 100% real and learn who these people really are and what their stories are.

Overall, I loved the show. I enjoyed meeting Us The Duo and appreciated getting to take photos and say hi to Tori. I do appreciate the little moments and loved the little small details and also the insanely large parts of the show. I'm a really big observer so I sort of take everything in and look at the mechanics of everything and how it all works and what doesn't work or could be better.. etc.

I wish given the amount of money I spent that it would've been a little more intimate and I would've gotten into the crowd instead of sitting on the sidelines, as well as getting to know the people behind their talents but I'm incredibly grateful for getting out to do what I love and watch others get to do what they love and are passionate about. It's extremely cool and amazing to me that music is a thing and that live music exists in a way that can connect people from all over the world to bond and feel a little less alone. It's an awesome thing and I'm glad that I could ever be a small part of it.

Post-Tori Feels Part 3

Onto the show!

Mom convinced me to sit on the side on some couches that were floating on a little platform on the edges of the ground floor. We sat with two people and then a nice lady came to sit next to me so it became a little crowded.

Papa Kellz came by and looked like he was on a mission but mom said hi and asked him if Tori's mom was there. He told me he remembered me and stopped to chat for a second so I told him about how I didn't know he was Tori's dad last time and I laughed. He was really sweet and shook our hands.

Then Andrew ran by with his camera looking like a secret ninja spy and I just said hi Andrew. He said hi and ran off to go do his thing.

Next Us came on stage and within the first five seconds I thought I was going to cry because their voices were mindblowingly beautiful. Their harmonies are insane. And then Michael started beatboxing and I wished Blake was there so he could enjoy it and I literally went from thinking they were two of the classiest, sweetest people I've ever met to two of the, classiest, sweetest, most badass people I've ever met. Their voices live are insane. The medley they did was incredible and I was left with my jaw dropped over how awesome they were. Before I met them I didn't really know much of anything about them and hadn't heard all of their music. I liked them but after the experience of meeting them and hearing them live I'm now a big fan. Glad I could be there and meet people as lovely as them.

Tori was amazing. Her vocals blow me away and the range of things she can do with her talent makes everything so exciting. The band was extremely talented. She performed Where I Belong/Expensive, Anyway, First Heartbreak, City Dove, Funny, Crazy, Thinking About You, Suit and Tie, PYT, Kiss, Paper Hearts, Unbreakable Smile, Nobody Love, Should've Been Us, Dear No One, and others.. with and without the band. I loved seeing her with and without the band and I thought it was a nice showcase of what she's capable of. The crowd seemed really into it, including the guy who screamed "I love you" after every song. I giggled after someone next to us said "we get it."

Apparently at one point someone threw a thong on stage. I saw something being thrown but I wasn't sure what it was.. I thought it was flowers since it was near the end of the show. She picked up a sign which I thought was cute and then later I discovered that was to cover up the thong. Something came out of the ceiling at the end which I thought was confetti or glitter but I read on twitter that it was actually bubbles. It was a crazy show and she did an incredible job commanding the stage.

Post-Tori Feels Part 2

After I met Carissa and Michael I wandered down to the first floor again to attend the listening party. I stood off to the side next to the speakers and the vibrations were crazy. I could feel it in my heart and my throat. Unfortunately for most of the listening party I was looking for my mom because she was also supposed to attend and I didn't see her. I spent a lot of time texting her and telling her that I got her a ticket so we wouldn't have to be separated. Therefore, I didn't actually hear some of what Tori was saying and to be completely honest I had fun at the listening party but it seemed really awkward. I can't imagine a bunch of people staring at me while I sit on a stage and we all listen to my songs. Tori was really sweet and nice about it but I thought it would turn out a little differently. I also didn't realize it would be clips of the songs, I thought it would be the full songs. So, my bad. I did work up the courage to raise my hand and ask her a question about whether she had tips for recording and producing. I meant tips as in notes but she basically just said that she grew up listening to music and playing in her room and messing around on garageband and Logic and slowly getting more stuff. I didn't find the exact answer I was looking for but it's nice that we both share similarities in music.

Moving on!

The meet and greet seemed like it took forever to get up the stairs for my turn. Since they didn't have a lot of people who just had listening party passes vs meet and greet passes, they let the listening party people have a meet and greet too. (My mom) Therefore, when it was finally our turn I said hi to Tori and introduced myself right away so I wouldn't forget like last time. We took our individual photo and then mom stepped in for our group photo. I don't think Tori remembered me at all, which was kind of expected. I gave her a gold feather bracelet last time at a show a few years ago and found out she gave it to a girl in the hospital in California. I told her thank you for giving it to her and that it connected us since we both have lung problems and she seemed happy to hear that it connected us and wondered where I got the bracelets from. I gave her the last feather bracelet that I was wearing and told her she could have that one since she gave the other one to the other girl. Those bracelets were my favourite but I still have the rest of the plain gold ones without the feathers from the set so I can always wear those. I wrote Tori a letter and forgot to give it to her so I gave it to a guy who worked there next to her at the meet and greet and he seemed confused. There's not a lot of time at meet and greets so I thought it would be nice to actually feel like I could talk to her that way. Hopefully he gave it to her. I'd like to think that he did.

Post-Tori Feels Part 1

So as you may know, I went to see Tori last Thursday (6-11-15) and I was excited about it but also kind of anxious and weird feeling. I thought I would blog about all the details and such since I got to get out of the house and have fun.

I packed up my stuff Thursday morning and made my way to Minneapolis. Initially the plan was to go to the hotel and then the venue but we didn't have enough time so a security guard at a parking ramp near the venue let me sneak in the staff only bathroom so I could change right before we had to be there. We went to McDonalds to grab something quick to eat nearby but I started feeling nauseous and the food wasn't very good so I only had a few fries, a chicken nugget, and a small portion of apple slices.

Mom and I made our way to a line outside of the venue around 4:15 pm and I asked some girls if we needed to grab our tickets from will call or not. A random guy came out of a bike shop and asked us if we knew where to get tickets. I informed him that the show was sold-out but mom was smart enough to remind me that I had an extra ticket since my friend didn't go. I offered him the ticket and he offered to pay me but I said I was just happy someone could use it. I gave him my number in case he had trouble getting in at the door since we would be in different groups. I found out his name was Leo and then mom and I soon got separated into different groups.

I was in the meet and greet line and then after a man came and put wristbands on us I got separated into yet another line since I also had a meet and greet for Us The Duo. He asked if any of us had tickets to meet and greets for both and I said I did so he told me that I would be going in first to meet Us and then after that I would run downstairs to join the listening party and then after that would be Tori's meet and greet.

After I took my ID out again, they gave me my Fahlo laminate badge and told me to head on up the stairs to meet Us. It was incredibly awkward because I didn't know where to go and there wasn't anyone to guide me so I just stumbled in while they were still taking things out of boxes. To be honest, I'm not even sure they were ready but they were very sweet and welcoming.

We talked about the drive up, the rain, and one of their videos. They handed me a beautiful little songbook that they signed and told me that they write their songs in it. I told them I usually type mine since my mind works too fast but that I love notebooks and then they asked me what instruments I play and I mentioned my youtube channel. Still wondering why I would mention my YouTube channel to them but it was really nice that they seemed interested. Michael typed it in on his phone and apparently found it.

Michael said he was good at taking selfies and I told them my eyes look stupid in photos so I put my sunglasses on and we took some really cute photos together. Carissa was so funny and adorable. A man from outside that told me I would be first came upstairs and said he had been looking all over for me. Apparently they were a little unorganized downstairs (oops) and I laughed and told him they told me to come up. Michael and Carissa hugged me again and thanked me for coming and we told each other to have a good show. They seemed to be genuinely wonderful people and it was great talking to them.

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

Pre-Tori Excitedness

I'm going to see Tori tomorrow at Varsity Theatre in Minneapolis. I keep going from not excited at all to over excited. I think it probably has more to do with my energy level than actual mood. I haven't been feeling very well but I'm beyond excited to get into the show atmosphere again. There is literally nothing like hearing live music. It has to be one of my favourite things in the entire universe. I love the energy and how everyone can feel so connected at the same time. Not to mention the level of talent and character of the people on stage is beyond fascinating to me. Literally like years of pain and suckage fall away when you live in moments like that. I've always joked that watching Tori is like watching someone have a musical exorcism. You don't just hear what she's singing but you feel it and it's so powerful and insane. I love it.

So anyway.

And I found out Us The Duo is opening for Tori so I'm even more excited now. I watched several of their videos years ago and I guess they're famous for vines now, which I haven't seen many of their vines.. but anyway. They are so cute.

And basically anytime I get to go out of the house and be around people who aren't related to me is awesome.

I'm nervous though. I'm trying to stay positive but I've been really worn out lately and tired and coughing, gagging.. etc. Not exactly an attractive way to say hello or be lively. I don't want to fall over or anything drastic. Everything keeps changing from day to day a little bit and it's hard to tell what tomorrow will bring..

Hopefully it will bring fun. And merch. Because I'm a huge merch nerd. And also friends. Because that would be cool. And hopefully I won't forget to introduce myself to Tori this time. lol