Thursday, August 6, 2015

Hello!

A lot has been going on this year. I just partially rehauled my website so it'll be cleaner and hopefully load a lot smoother, as well as updating content on several social media profiles.

These past few months I've been focusing hard on trying to reach various goals throughout my life. I've compiled a "bucket list" of sorts but there are a few major projects that I've been working on and would like to have completed before I die.

A list of those things:

Funeral Planning (Yes, funeral planning.) - In talking about organ transplant and having so many people die, I've realized that it's extremely important that people know what your wishes are. I've been funeral planning and I'm seeing firsthand how complicated that can actually be. There are so many things to tackle when it comes to the topic and it can be overwhelming but it's also oddly kind of fun. It's like planning a giant sad party, only I hope it's not entire sadness. Anyway, aside from that I've been working on other projects too!

Finishing my book - I've always wanted to write a book and for several years now I've been working on one. I had my book almost entirely finished about a year ago when my computer decided to stop working and stupid me forgot to back up my files, so all of my hardwork has completely vanished, along with almost all of the content. I've been compiling poems, art, stories, photographs, and other forms of media lately that will be in my book. The idea is to have it done by Christmas so I can give everyone a copy as a gift. It's a huge undertaking but I'm determined to finally get it done!

Recording an EP - This is something that has been my dream since I was a little girl. I didn't know what an EP was at the time, but I always thought CDs in the stores were so beautiful and I wanted one to call my own. I've been songwriting for approximately ten or so years now and I love to sing. I'm hoping that I'll be able to record an EP. The cost is extremely expensive and it'll be a long time before I can record professionally in a studio, so until then I'm left battling whether I want to attempt doing it myself, recruiting friends, or going all in. My primary goals are to finish funeral planning and publish my book before I record my EP.

Scrapbooking - Scrapbooking has been a love of mine for awhile. I love being able to be creative and I'm slightly obsessed with photographs and memories so I'd love nothing more than to be able to put everything together in a cute little book. This unfortunately also takes a lot of money and a lot of time, two things that are sort of working against me here.. but again, I'm working on it.

Books and Movies - I have a wish list of books and movies that I'd love to read and watch. Entertainment is great when I want to take a break from doing the other things I listed above.

Travel - I want to take one last family trip with all of us together. (It's a surprise.) My mom keeps saying she wants to go to see "The Presidents' heads" and my aunt mentioned how beautiful the Black Hills are. I looked up some photos and how much it would cost and I'm pretty much sold. It's a decent distance trip and probably the last time I'll travel that far away unless I end up getting a double lung transplant. Anyway, I want all of us to get together for once and have fun and take photos and I want to be able to look back on it and smile.

Dog - I've been wanting a dog for about a year now. It's been quiet around where I live and there's not a lot to do. I think a dog could be a great way for me to stay motivated to take care of myself and I'd love to have someone to love who loves me back.

Treatments and life - Treatments and life in general are exhausting. I get really tired just from trying to do everything. My parents have kindly been doing my laundry and I've pretty much only been eating pre-made snacks and meals so I don't have to cook. Showering gets exhausting so mom bought me one of those shower benches. I've been thinking about getting a wheelchair eventually but the other day I tried forcing myself to jog, even though it can be difficult to walk. I'm trying to break the mold of getting used to being sick. I want to live and have fun!

Those are just some of my goals and dreams. There's a lot to enjoy in life and I wish I would've started doing all of this earlier but I'm glad that I'm doing it now. I can't wait to accomplish something from my list!